The title, you ask? Well, heheh...sebenarnya aku tak tau camna nak express this particular thought. Sekarang tengah buat medic. Which is good. Dah lama dah nak buat medic. But, sometimes, rasa macam ada something missing. Rasa macam breathless, tak tentu arah, empty. Kadang-kadang tertanya 'What am I doing?' I used to know what I was doing. I had something dulu, and I hope I can find it again...
<Sigh> To be honest, all this started because I was procrastinating with my work. Some cuti right? The week after next terus exam. And bila aku jenguk-jenguk kat notes yang bertimbun tu, aku ternganga...look at how much I have to cover! Like, holy crap, man! What's this muscle? That artery? What innervates this gland and not that one? Gila ah banyak nya...
Basically what I'm saying is: I want to be in medical, sans the student part. Ergo, I'm blogging when I'm supposed to be studying. Whoops.
Oh well, kita tak kan terima dugaan yang tak mampu ditahan, kan everyone?
So the lesson is, sometimes what you want isn't always what you imagine it to be. My parents keep telling me to sabar, be strong, and (especially my dad) that I can do it. Just don't give up and all that song and dance. Not everyone is in medical school, I know, but all of us have our challenges. In a way its up to us to find our own way around them. To drive our own roads and to find our own mark on the compass.
For now, peace out.
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